Ugh.

Back to boredom.

Coucou Paris!

I arrived in Paris this saturday at 6h20 am, although my body knew it was 1 in the morning back in Fart Myers.
I am not going to lie, this is quite a cultural and scenery shock. I'm taking it all in, Paris always amazes because even though I've lived there 12 years of my life, it still continues to surprise me-in a good way.
I miss Dan so much, I felt far enough from him when he moved to Clearwater but now I'd need to fly over a whole ocean to see him again.
I'll be fine though, the realization that I am going to see him on Skype tonight is keeping me on my toes (is that an expression? Oh well, if it wasn't, it is now).
I'll try to upload pictures throughout my trip, for the sake of my imaginary friends :D

Aurevoir mes amis imaginaires!

Parents.

It's funny how the moment you think your parents are evil, they come back around and do the nicest things.
I experienced that tonight, my parents are very strange, they change their minds all the time.
But tonight, it was for the better. With the help of a little wine, they loosened up at the dinner table and they talked to me about their childhood, how proud they are of me, and how much they like my boyfriend.
It's during these times that I realize that my parents do have a heart, they are vulnerable human beings, and they are dying for my acceptance.
It's tonight that I realized how much I love them and how I wouldn't want any other parents in the world.
And I'm thinking this blog is what I'll turn to when they piss me off.
This is good therapy, hah.

930.

How are you supposed to feel when you get your SAT scores and you find out that you got a 930?
You feel like COMPLETE ASS!
It sucks, it really sucks, I'm dissapointed and angry. But mostly, it was a shot to my self-esteem. Every little bits of confidence I had regarding my intelligence went out the window.
Everyone I talk to got a 1100 or higher.
Well thank who ever thought of judging students on a 5 hour test!
I work my ass off at school to keep my grades to A's and B's and one fucking test is going to screw it all up for me? That is senseless.
I'm craving food, that usually makes me feel better at times of sadness.

On top of that bad news, I've been pretty moppy lately, mainly because of my relationship right now. Let's just say it feels like I'm single even though I'm not.
I'm too confused and emotionally lazy to do anything about it.
Doing nothing about it isn't as successful as I thought it would be.

Ugh, I'm sorry I'm so negative (especially on my first post since the last million year), to be honest, I can pick out a few things that are going well in my life right now.
1) I am on vacation for 11 days.
2) Since the beginning of spring break, I have started working out and eating healthy.
3) Kaita is coming over on thursday! She is the only thing that's stable in my life, I always know I can count on her.

You know what I watch when I get moppy?


Enjoy!