Priorities.

This whole phone situation was the dumbest idea! Why did I think of it?
Long distance calls never work. I wasted my energy and my good mood on something that ended up crappy. I felt lonely and rejected in the end. Well liah, you can only blame yourself for it.
I should just stop myself from connecting to the other side of the world, completely. No myspace, no phone. Ta-da, sounds like a perfect plan!
I should just be having fun, enjoying my vacation 100% of the time. I do it to myself though, I'm so bad at bringing myself back up when it comes to Jon.
I just keep on bringing myself down, I don't quite know why.
I shouldn't be doing that anymore, after everything we've been through.
I feel so unstable sometimes; and I just need some time off everything, it takes so much out of me.
All the arguing, worrying, thinking, blah blah blah.
This is really not a post for anyone to read, I just need to open up and let it all out, everyone's asleep in this appartment and everything is dark. I have no one to talk to, this is SHIT.
I'm sure I'm coming off as a drama queen. I probably am one.

I feel like I haven't been giving a lot of attention to Kaita too, that's really been bothering me. I love her to death, and I miss her so fucking much. It's so sad not being able to really talk to her, I've had some good myspace convo's with her though. I swear, that girl is the most beautiful girl, inside and out. I'm so glad I met her, and we have such a great friendship.
She makes me so happy.
I probably sound like a lesbian, haha.
It's so weird, but I truly feel like we'll always be there for each other; we'll be gramma's knitting together, licking each other's toes while watching Cruel Intentions.
Because you know, that's what all g-ma's do these days, hehe.

Well, this post is getting long. But boy, it has helped so much.
It's crazy how talking to a computer can help so much, HAH!
Night!
Talk to me, if you're awake and interested.