Scattered mind.

My stay at Kaitas' was amazing. I didn't want to leave, we did a bunch of girlie things, like making bracelets.
I love hanging out with this girl, she makes my days brighter.
Not to mention, she smells delicious!
Honestly though, there's not one thing I didn't enjoy doing there.
Well, except pooping in her bathroom. It came at the worst possible times.
Like 2 minutes before we had to leave to the store.
My poop needs to hurry up, damn it!

Silliness aside, her parents' cooking was wounderful, I felt like I was in a *****star hotel (no cussing intended).

After spending 3 days at Kaita's, my uncle picked me up to go shopping at cocopo.
Man, shopping with a gay man is like shopping with a biotch.
Don't get me wrong, he bought me amazing things, and I was so thankful.
But he pretty much made the "Liah shopping Day"(that's what he called it), all about him, hah!
Anyway, I got great dresses and a purple scarf!
I also proposed him to go see Mama Mia, just because I figured he's been dying to see it.
And he was stoked. We went to Moe's for his first time, of course he loved it.
He got a bunch a sour cream on the side of him mouth though which led to the awkward comment he whispered: "I've been a bad boy."
YUCK.

Later on that night, we went to his house, we had my cousin over, and then Garry, a friend of Tim's, dropped off his weiner dog.
Wait for it.......Peenie!
Yup, that's his name.
Peenie Weenie!
Now, of course all night I kept calling him Skippy or Moxy, because I had spend so much time with Kaita's dogs.
So that sure confused Poor Peenie Weenie.
Apparently, Tim has to babysitt him for 10 days, I hope the dog doesn't die.

Oh! I also made bracelets for my cousin, his mom, and Tim.

Sunday, I hung out with Johnny boy, and his friends at Kyle's. It was a "going away" surprise party for Kyle.
Brad kinda ruined it for us by telling him we were all coming over though, haha.

Overall, I've had a MAGNIFIQUE week!

Yeepie!

Oh boy! 2 more weeks, I think I might die.

Hah!

I just realized how much my blog titles suck!
I am gonna need to work on that.

Went to Busch Gardens today!
I had the best time ever out of the 4 times I had been there.
If you haven't gone, please go.

The rides are not for pussies, that's for sure.

Jon and I had such a great time together, even when we were soaking wet, stuck in the thunderous rain for 1h30. Wow, long ass sentence.

I hope Kaita is doing okay, hopefully we're hanging out soon.
I miss her terribly, she's the sweetest girl I know.

She's got everything anyone could want or need.
Humor, love, uniqueness(sp?), creativity, loyalty(I wrote royalty at first, heh), and good grammar.
:)

The list could go on, but I think that's the best way to sum it up.

Lonely.

I wish I had 3 girlfriends sometimes, we'd be 4 total.
Like the Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants or Sex and the City.
It would just allow variety and more excitement.
For example, I'm watching America's Best Dance Crew right now. And I wish I could just call all 3 of my "friends" at the same time(somehow) and just get all cheesy and excited when something Epic happens.
I know this sounds cliche, but right now that's all I want.
Cheesiness is the key to life sometimes.

That's all I had to say.
Pooptidoowoop!

Side note: The new Converse commercial is amazing.
Side note#dos: I've said poop too many times today.

WTF!

What the fuck?!
Yup. I am officially pissed off.
I'm having such a great time in France, and things just keep getting in the way of my enjoyment of life.
First, now that I got used to the French keyboard, I now suck at typing with the American one, this indeed, irritates me.
Second, old "friends" are bitches. I mean, why did I even think they were my friends.
This is how I notice that I'm too naive and just too nice.
Third, people that are jealous because there old friends like me more than them.
What can I do about it?!huh?!
Maybe you should of been a better friend to them in the first place.
Ughh!
And lastly, people that don't believe me when I say something, regardless at how many times I tell them.

Thanks blog!
You really helped!

Priorities.

This whole phone situation was the dumbest idea! Why did I think of it?
Long distance calls never work. I wasted my energy and my good mood on something that ended up crappy. I felt lonely and rejected in the end. Well liah, you can only blame yourself for it.
I should just stop myself from connecting to the other side of the world, completely. No myspace, no phone. Ta-da, sounds like a perfect plan!
I should just be having fun, enjoying my vacation 100% of the time. I do it to myself though, I'm so bad at bringing myself back up when it comes to Jon.
I just keep on bringing myself down, I don't quite know why.
I shouldn't be doing that anymore, after everything we've been through.
I feel so unstable sometimes; and I just need some time off everything, it takes so much out of me.
All the arguing, worrying, thinking, blah blah blah.
This is really not a post for anyone to read, I just need to open up and let it all out, everyone's asleep in this appartment and everything is dark. I have no one to talk to, this is SHIT.
I'm sure I'm coming off as a drama queen. I probably am one.

I feel like I haven't been giving a lot of attention to Kaita too, that's really been bothering me. I love her to death, and I miss her so fucking much. It's so sad not being able to really talk to her, I've had some good myspace convo's with her though. I swear, that girl is the most beautiful girl, inside and out. I'm so glad I met her, and we have such a great friendship.
She makes me so happy.
I probably sound like a lesbian, haha.
It's so weird, but I truly feel like we'll always be there for each other; we'll be gramma's knitting together, licking each other's toes while watching Cruel Intentions.
Because you know, that's what all g-ma's do these days, hehe.

Well, this post is getting long. But boy, it has helped so much.
It's crazy how talking to a computer can help so much, HAH!
Night!
Talk to me, if you're awake and interested.

Love!

I fucking love Jon Philip Pratico!



and this trip is dumb!

I'm gonna be honest,

I want to come home.
I am already sick of this place.
Not Paris itself, the people in Paris.
I'm sick of my family there, and I'm sick of the mean angry French people that expect you to buy stuff from them when they talk to you like shit.
I'm sick of the French people that talk to you like they're higher than you when they look like fucking ding bags.
I'm sick of seing couples holding hands, and kissing every where I go in Paris.
It makes me miss Jon wayyyyy more, I just wish he could be here with me because I know that I would love this trip then!
I can't stand my family when we're all together. I just can't, I just want to leave for a plane by myself to Fart Myers. Yeah, that's right, I 'd rather be in Fart Myers than in Paris.
The only thing that keeps me going about this trip is the food there, the beautiful architecture. But mostly thinking about what to buy for Jon and Kaita. Because they are the most important people to me. And that's the end of it.

Sorry if I sound so emotional.
But guess what, I fucking am.
I'm lost without the love of my life.
And I'm so overwhelmed with everything I've left undone.